Tuesday, March 26, 2013

10 Years Ago Today

On this day in 2003, I was off of work for spring break at my old job.  I had spent the two days before with my mom visiting both my grandmothers (my mom's mom had just been put into a nursing home in January) and that Wednesday was my last day off for the week since staff didn't get the full week off.

So that morning I decided to try something.  You see about a month before, we had decided that it was time....we wanted a baby.  And it was on that morning that I was home alone that I took a home pregnancy test and couldn't believe my eyes that I saw two lines!!  TWO!  I giggled uncontrollably.  I didn't know what to do.  I didn't want to tell anyone else before I told Jason and he was at work and that was NOT how I wanted to tell him.

I am not quite sure what I did for the rest of the morning (probably spent some time online reading about early pregnancy) but I ended up going to Target and the bookstore and picking up some gender neutral newborn onesies and "What to Expect When You're Expecting."  I think I read the whole book in one afternoon.

Jason got home from work and I had laid the onesies, book and pregnancy test in on the computer desk for him to find.  I remember waiting for him to go in there (since that was always the first place he went to check his personal email - back in the days of no data on cell phones) and then he walked back out with a onesie in one hand and the pregnancy test in the.  "Um, what does this mean??""

We were about to become parents!  Parents.  Whoa.  We didn't tell my parents for a few more days and we told Jason's parents that following weekend.  It was big news since this would be the first grandchild.  Big news!

Hard to believe that was TEN years ago.  Up to this point it was always in what seemed smaller incremental numbers but 10 seems like a milestone, doesn't it?  10 years ago our world changed forever.  And even though we didn't hold our baby for 8 more months, it was on that day that things would never be the same either.  Our priorities changed as did the way we thought about ourselves and our world.

Hard to believe that Caroline has been in my consciousness and heart now for 10 years.  It really makes you realize how quickly time goes and wonder how different life will be 10 years from now.

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