Thursday, May 03, 2012

El Grumpo

That's me lately.  Just plain grumpy.  Well, maybe not always grumpy but feeling quite unmotivated and generally just blah.  Maybe it's because the weather has been such crap since we got back from Disney (the one awesome weekend we had in mid-April I was so sick I stayed in the house).  Or maybe it's because there has just been so many things to do with Bryce in baseball, the girls in gymnastics, and all these errands to run and places to go in between.

I'm also having a lot of trouble resuming my early morning workout routine.  I was doing great before Disney averaging 4-5 mornings a week, but since we've been back I've made it up 3 times.  Ugh.  The other day I took a half day at work to take the kids to the allergist and because I had an extra hour before I picked the kids up, I used it to get on the treadmill.  It felt so good and it made me realize how much better working out at a normal hour feels as opposed to 5:30.  Even when I'm in a good routine, working out at 5:30 is tough.  Your body is stiff and you just aren't awake. I would LOVE to be able to work out in the middle of the day or in the early evening before dinner.  But that just isn't happening.  I will admit a little jealousy with a few SAHM friends (online and in real life - no one who reads here) who work out quite regularly.  I know they are busy with many other things throughout there day, but I'm jealous that their schedule is flexible enough to have the ability to get to the gym most days of the week or take long fitness walks/bike rides with other mom friends. (And yes, I acknowledge that this is only some SAHMs, not all., and that those who do workout regularly have to make it a priority to do so.)   The only time I truly have to work out during the week is the early morning or after the kids go to sleep and I just cannot workout at 9pm when I need to go to bed at 10pm.  Everyone asks if I can work out during the day at work and I really can't.  I do make an effort to take either one long or two short walks during the day if I'm not in back to back meetings.  I could also probably take a longer lunch and go to a gym but that means I'd have to stay later at work which I can't do since I need to get home to the kids and dinner.  As for the evenings, we used to take family walks after dinner a lot but now that the kids want to play with their friends, that doesn't happen often anymore especially since we have more evening commitments.  Don't get me wrong, I really like my job and I'm happy to be working it's just that sometimes the rigid workday schedule gets to me.

Sigh.

I know this is just for now and the kids will be older and more independent before I know it and I will have plenty of time to exercise, but it's just hard now.

I'm also grumpy because I just feel like there are so many household projects we need to do but I don't know when we'll do them.  We need to run to Lowe's or Home Depot for a few things and I'm already preparing myself for the complaint session when we have to take the kids with us.  I'm so tired of the complaining about every little thing.  Maybe that's part of my grumpiness too.  Grrrr.  Sometimes I feel like growling.  Maybe I need to start.  It works for the mother lion, why not me?

2 comments:

Katie said...

I think Home Depot should have a childcare center like the gym does. They would do SO much more business!! LOL!!

If it makes you feel better, I only get to the gym once or twice a week. I am hoping it gets to be more frequent next year. I do enjoy going during the day. I don't think I could get up at 5:30, so kudos to you for doing that!

One thing I wish you could do is the soccer mom league! It is on Friday nights & Sunday nights and that is when I get my best workouts in b/c the kids aren't around! Sometimes it is tough to play at 10pm (probably the same feeling you get at 5:30am b/c after 10pm game I can't sleep until 1am). Anyways, those mom leagues save me b/c I never miss it b/c teammates rely on me.

I wish there were something like that for you!! Any ideas??? Zumba??

Erika said...

Thanks, K! My problem is there's just no time in my schedule. If I had time, I could probably find a class that I could do but with evening sports (kids) and such, there's not time for mom (or dad). I know this is a finite period of time. It's just so frustrating.