Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Last Bag of Milk

I don't know why I'm sad about it, well, actually, I do. I had to pull the last bag of frozen breastmilk out of the freezer tonight so that Piper will have enough for 2 bottles tomorrow. I'm having a bit of a supply dip, likely due to Piper not nursing enough over the weekend because of her stuffy nose and rotten cold. I kind of was waiting to have to use that last bag until I really needed it but given that I just had enough for one bottle, it was a necessity. And then I realized that she will be 11 months old on Sunday and that as we get into the 11th month, it will be okay to start supplementing her breastmilk bottles with cow's milk. Which means, the end to pumping is near. And while I LOATHE pumping 3 times a day 5 days a week, I love that it keeps up my supply enough to continue nursing her on demand on the weekends and days off. I'm happy about the upcoming week long beach vacation that is coming up because I can nurse her all week without pumping. And when we get back it will be less then 2 weeks until the all hailed 1st birthday which has always been my goal for breastfeeding.

I made it to 9 months with Caroline exclusively breastfeeding before I finally broke down and started giving her formula during the day. I kept nursing her in the morning and before bed until 11 months. With Bryce, I was bound and determined to make it to a year without supplementing due to his food allergies and I did it. I stopped pumping around a year and then completely weaned him by 13 months. So with Piper, I also wanted to make it to a year for the simple fact it's what I had done before and because, well, it's my last baby and I wanted to.

Nursing her during the day isn't always so fun anymore. I mean, I love cuddling her and looking at her funny little faces that she makes. But a lot of times, she turns nursing into nursing yoga and sees what kind of positions she can get into and still get milk. She's quite a little contortionist sometimes. It kind of reminds me of a little puppy. And if her siblings are around, all bets are off because they are waaaaaaay more interesting than the milk and I are. But her first meal of the day and last meal of the day are always the sweetest because she's quiet and is happy to just cuddle up against me. And now that it's summer that means her little arms, legs, and feet are out which means more skin to touch and have right against you. I sit and just marvel at her and what an amazing little baby she is and how much I love her.

She makes me laugh because every time I nurse her in bed with me in the mornings, she always finishes up and as soon as she's done she crawls up to start grabbing remotes off the headboard. I'd forgotten that Caroline and Bryce used to do that too.

I'm not sure how long I'll continue nursing after I stop pumping in a month - I'll kind of just see how it progresses since Bryce kind of just lost interest and I don't even remember the last time (which is good). I just know that I'll miss this time with her when she's content to just snuggle with me and be completely mine.

1 comment:

Erin said...

You are awesome for doing this with ALL THREE KIDS!! I look forward to giving all this a try with my third, and last baby. Third time's the charm, right? ;)