Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Consoling Myself with Blogs

Yes, this is the 3rd time I have been through this and yes, I remember not feeling great the last few weeks, but I've taken to trolling a few old entries in blogs in which people have had babies in the last year or so just to get some validation that how I'm feeling is totally normal and most everyone feels like crap by this point. You know, kind of simple commiseration even if it was from the past.

It seems Katie and Erin were flat out exhausted at this point too. And add Amy to the list of people suffering from major heartburn in the final weeks as well. So thank you ladies for your unknowing support - I hope my pregancy entries will help someone else in the final, difficult weeks someday.

So yeah, heartburn and exhaustion (even if you're getting decent sleep). And while I'm getting to bed on time - a big deal for me - I'm up a few times to use the bathroom and my hips hurt so badly because the only way I can lay right now is on my side and the pressure on my outer hip just makes it ache. So I wake up at like 4am and my hips hurt on both sides and neither side feels good. How do you lay then? And this morning when I was up at 4am, I had a major sinus headache. WTH? I haven't had a headache in months (again, a big deal for me) so I was a little grouchy. Thankfully 2 extra strength Tylenol helped me to get back to sleep.

But here I sit at my desk, on this lovely day, wishing I could just take a nap. The diet soda hasn't kicked in yet and I feel kind of barfy. 4 weeks, 4 weeks, 4 weeks - that is what I keep telling myself. At least I know it won't be any longer.

And last night I made myself do a few things around the house so I wouldn't feel quite so crappy about it. I cleaned the powder room, folded/put away some 3-6 month baby clothes, and cleaned the inside of the sliding glass door that had been attacked by some young child that was covered in sunscreen the week prior. So not exactly a whole lot, but it was more than just laying around and it did take quite a bit of my energy.


Katie said...

Oh my gosh, I still haven't recovered from last year. I can still feel that terrible sciatic nerve pain and OH the heartburn! Are you dilated yet? That's brutal-- walking around dilated. Ooof. Pregnancy is hard, but you are so close to the end. Can you believe it's mid-June already? I remember wishing the baby would come on July 4th. I was SO ready to be done that day.
Keep reading my old blog posts...I'm sure they'll comfort you. I read a couple this morning and laughed.

Erika said...

I'm guessing they'll check me at my 36 week appointment next week since they'll be doing the usual group B strep test and such. Based on my history, I'd be disappointed to be anything less than 2. Not that it means anything in terms of going into labor - I just walk around dilated for weeks.

Amy said...

Glad my former misery was able to soothe you. :-)

Viv said...

I had been forgetting what I felt like last May until I read this blog! I tell you it's def. harder to rest and relax like they tell you too in that last month! Especially when you have other kids to take care of! I felt great when I was expecting Makenzie because it was all done and I just could sit and veg but with Tori I felt like I was running out of time and there was ALWAYS something needed to be done. Oy! Hang in there and think about the little precious bundle you'll have in few weeks! Remember time flies in retrospect.

H. said...

Oh Erika, I feel your hip pain! I had that so bad with Gretchen and sciatica too! I had MAJOR pillows between my knees sleeping and behind my back to help. You are almost there and you'll get to hold that itty bitty bundle of joy really soon!